“I slept late last night. Let me complete my sleep. It’s okay not to wake up early.”
“What if I don’t practice gratitude this morning? At least I’ll be sleeping well. That’s also part of self-care.”
“I wish my husband could make breakfast. Nevertheless, I’ll order bread and butter from Blinkit, and breakfast shall be sorted.”
“Sleeping is the only thing that gives me peace of mind. Self-care and all can be done later.”
“I wish I was pampered by my husband with a morning kiss and breakfast in bed. Don’t be silly, he’s already doing enough and bearing with all your weird mood swings, isn’t he?”
“Life’s being very mean to me these days. I don’t want to face the world. I’d better sleep.”
Most of my mornings looked like this for a few months. And mind you, it’s the worst thing that can happen to you, especially in your 30s when there’s so much to do.
There’s so much on your plate. Like, you have a family to look after, you have a passion that awaits becoming your full-time career, you have a body that needs serious attention, you have several meals to cook, and if you’re someone like me who has an exhaustive list of hobbies to pursue, then you’re already in danger, you see.
I’m an author of two books – Monday Mornings Done Right and My Brave Lady. I’ve written a few e-books which are also available on Amazon. This blog has been my favourite space to write in since 2018. I journal a lot, like really a lot. I’ve conducted quite a few journaling workshops, and the participants have surely enjoyed them as much as I have. I love reading books. I create content on Instagram and make YouTube videos in my mother tongue – Marathi. My channel has 23.1k subscribers as I write this.
Despite pursuing each and everything I love, sometimes I do find it difficult even to wake up from my bed. I have a lot to look forward to every single day. My days are well planned as I am a pen-and-paper person and always have my to-do lists in place.
But I have days when simply waking up from bed feels like an accomplishment. I cry, I panic about everything, I do nothing, and when I’m done doing all of this, I bounce back even stronger. Maybe that’s the beauty of it?
I think allowing yourself enough time to heal is most important amidst all the panicking.
It’s strange that I turn to this blog whenever life feels heavy and unhappy. Currently, the kind of situation I am dealing with is pretty disturbing and overwhelming at the same time. And it’s something I cannot share with anyone. I have to deal with it all by myself.
Not that I am doing this for the first time in life, but the intensity of the situation is definitely one of a kind. After a few days of feeling lost and defeated, it suddenly struck me that I have my safe space where I can finally find myself again.
So, here I am – almost broke, sad, and lost, yet holding onto hope, for that’s the only way out.
It’s like you forget appreciating God when you’re happy and suddenly start praying to Him when you want something. That’s exactly how I’ve been treating this blog lately.
I started off with this platform and have ventured into many other platforms like Instagram and YouTube. And I do feel guilty about not writing here much. Maybe that’s the reason I feel at home whenever I write here.
Well, I think I blabbered in today’s blog, but I will soon come up with something clearer and more interesting in the coming days. Giving myself the time and headspace to calm down and look at things with perspective.
Till then, take care!
Bye!!
